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I dont really know what to write anymore, i guess i got writers block loljk im a talented little turtle B)

You know SO much has happened since the last time i blogged, both good and bad. i lost some friends, gained a few and met someone who has become the world to me. I cant exactly say that ive had the time of my life cause well i havent. The friends i lost happened to be the closest to me, the ones that i really REALLY cared about. So as of today, or yesterday to be precise, i'll have to start to re establish that once old and now dying friendship.

There are times in your life where you have to stop think and wonder what going on, whats happening and what are you doing right now. Thats why the frequent question is asked, what are you thinking about right now? Right now? Im thinking about why there is a lizard staying in my house rent free when that scaly bugger should be killing flies to be allowed in my room.

My point being, although people say live in the moment, live in the present, be spontaneous etc etc, i believe we shouldnt do all that. Now correct me if im wrong but what if spontaneity got us to all the wrong places and showed us the shorter paths in life rather than taking the trouble and learning something new? NOTE this is my belief i couldnt care less what yours is (:

Im gonna leave this topic now cause i havent written in a while, so i dont want to exhaust all my thoughts and ideas in one long ass post :P

Ciaoo readers, till next time

In the end?

I dont get this life ladies and gentlemen. We do what the monkey in front of us does. Forgive me if im wrong but isnt that just plain ol dumb? If the guy in front slaps a kid because he was crying does that make it right for you to do so? I just dont get it

In this world all of us just do stuff to please the guy to your left. This systematic thinking pattern we've developed is an adaptive technique used to stay amongst the crowd and not kept aside. I personally think if you want to get in the crowd, you either make your own or you be yourself. Acting like someone youre not doesnt make you better than the rest. People who use excess make up to hide their flaws just want to be pretty. Accept yourself for who you are, in the end that IS who you are. the final judgement isnt going to be passed based you the amount of make up on or the colored contacts youre wearing.

There are people like me who try so hard to please other people, make plans for them and go out of my way to do whats best for them. Whats my return in this unfair trade? Oh right, i get a pat on the back wheeeeee . Furthermore if i do complain that i didnt get my fairshare, the usual, oh you'lll be rewarded in heaven story. I dont quite believe that. If God intended that we suffer throughout so we can get a good seat in heaven, then sorry im becoming an atheist. When we are alive, we do things and we get a rewards. Granted we can do things that would get rewards after we die, but it shouldnt always be like that.

Yeah i know, its been a while since ive blogged so imma just go back into hibernation and leave this site :) Ciaoo folks, till next time

The Comments that actually touched me

My two best friends died within a year of each other. We were the 3 best friends anyone could find and I'm the last on standing. Lucy was the first to pass, she was 15 and became wicked sick and one October 25,2008 died in her sleep. Then September 3rd,2009 Maggie was killed in a car accident, at just 16 years old. Now 17 I miss my friends more than anything as I begin to look for colleges, and everytime I hear this song I think of the sisters I've lost.
R.I.P. My girls. Friends from Kindergarte

my best friend is about to die today or soon after what a beautifull song and with a few changes in words i made it my prayer to her.i love you oh so much and i wont let go. dedicated to my wife thanks rascal flatts you are the best
gary s delon 3/23/11

My friend Veronica got in a car accident last Saturday, we are from a small town so everybody knows about it. She has a very small percent chance of living, and the whole school cried at an assembly on Monday morning. It just goes to show how short life can be. We will all stand by Veronica at this time in her life. WE LOVE YOU VERONICA!!

I lost my best friend last month.. this song makes me think of her, so much... rip Melissa.. we all loved you

My partner's and my favorite song. She has been fighting cancer for the past 6 years and in one month we are going in for her to do a bone marrow transplant... we listen to this song a lot, it represents so very much! All the hard times and the good we are there for eachother. She is the strongest person I have ever met, she is my hero!

this is to my friend donna who is recovering from an addiction to meth after the law kicked the door in an took her, her husband, and my god niece an nephew iv been with her since the night she got out and we attend a.a. together im here no matter what because i know she would do it for me.....this song brings tears to my eyes everytime i hear it and makes all of our struggles (their never hers alone to bear) worth it.......

This song is dedicated to my sister who has been away from her family for awhile taking care of our mother while she recovering. Thank you for your sacrifice, patience, kindness...I know it is so hard, I will stand by you, I will help you through though I can't be there...I am sorry it was all put on your shoulders

I miss you Chris I will never let go...

Because this song was really awesome i think y'all should hear it - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIIorYfTSTo&feature=related
Enjoy

To the one that got away =)

It’s like a storm
That cuts a path
It’s breaks your will
It feels like that

You think your lost
But your not lost on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
If you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

And I won't let you fall
Don’t be afraid to fall
I’m right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I’m gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Wont let you go
No I won't

You'll always be my bestfriend, and because you are, i'll let you go.
One day, we'll have our restaurant okay? =)

A Pot Belly Is Macho

The problem with life - i dont know if you've noticed this - is that just as you approach a goal, someone moves the goal posts. In school, i wanted to be mistaken for a loner, someone different from  everybody else. This could be achieved, II learnt, by growing my hair Long and wearing a pair of torn jeans would give that look. Unfortunately, the same elf had whispered in the ears of a few thousand others and all of us loners who wanted to be different wore our hair long and our jeans torn.

We looked like a scene out of a badly edIted war movie. Then came a period when the received wisdom was that you had to have a beard to be macho.  Look at Hemingway, they said, although it was difficult to looK at a man who had been dead for decades.

Anyway, i begAn the project in pursuit of the hirsute. After living through Many months of jokes and shakes of the head i had the beginning of the start of the commencement of a beard when a new campaign informed us with great authority that potential brides preferred clean shaven men.

And then it hit me. i was going about it the wrong way. Forget the six packs withouth which no man is consider complete ; after All stomach muscles are just stomach muscles. Forget the hair which may or may not co-operate with the incipient of a bald patch. Dont run towards the goalposts, make the goalposts come to you

And thats why in the recent weeks ive been working really reaLly hard on my new goal, get a pot belly. Similarly with this lifestyle sedentary non exercising, fatty food can be helpful. The beauty of this scheme is that its easy to get and you dont have to try so hard. After all who wants to be told by some musguided spin doctor that girls prefer clean shaven six packed filled men? Take the choice out of the equation and pass the butter =)